No idea what I want or what I'm thinking. I say "it's the only way" but what do I mean by that? I usually know what I want. Now I don't. I am in a state of confusion. I am annoyed and confused. Furious yet not angry at all. You have put me in a drink mixer and shaken me up. It's all so dumb. I don't need this. I don't want this...but then again maybe I do?